Wait...weight?!?!

So I've been off with my fitness lately and I know it. And I say it's OK but deep down I know it isn't...I miss working out religiously! I do but when is enough...enough?!?

All my life I've been fat...let's admit it...I WAS fat! I don't want ppl to say, "oh no...u weren't fat!" YES I WAS! LOL it's OK...I accept it...I moved on and obviously it shows! Lol but til recently I've been thrown off with events that I thought I could deal with by going to the gym and destressing...but NO! I'm human I F*** up and it's OK! Lol as long as I bounce right back up right?!? Well I haven't picked myself up 100% but I'm getting there...I lost the focus and the purpose of me losing the weight. My main reason was to prove to myself I could do it just needed to get off my ass...second reason was obviously a dude...smh and that's where I definitely went wrong lol after losing the weight I felt great clothes that I couldn't fit in years finally closed without my muffin top bulging out...or me feeling like I couldn't breathe Lol I was and still am feeling good about myself (except for today...feeling a little chuboski lol.) As I was losing the weight I was told I'm was getting waaaaaaaay too skinny and I guess it could've been that no one has ever seen me at my smallest...127 (I'm even surprised at that Lol) and I was told to gain a few lbs even from my own family. Now that I have gained a few lbs aka happy weight...pissed off weight...ijdgaf weight...whatever...I'm told im fat...

For those that know me and I hope there are a few of u Lol I have issues with my weight...and I'll never be content cuz I know where I want my body to be...but at what expense?!? Shit I don't mind paying for these fitness programs that I have cuz I KNOW they work...if I'm willing to drop mad money on shoes I can spend it on my health that's not a problem...my issue is...when will I be content...when will ppl stop judging me...I'm human I fall, I get back up, and fall again...it's life...as long as I realize it...I'll be OK...the world will be OK...the haters will be OK, it'll give them more ammo to hate about...OK I got some tracked Lol...but Yea...where was I?!?! Yea at what expense do I need to hear go to the gym, ur getting fat, blah blah blah...look man! Lol I have the determination to get what I want cuz I know I can do it with or without help...I just want to be clear minded when I do it...I don't wanna hear oh ur letting urself go...hey...I'm still here! I just need me time and that's what I haven't had.

I don't want anyone to think this is directed towards them cuz it's just how I have been feeling for a while...and thnx to those that actually wanna help me out! I appreciate it! I really sincerely do! :o) but imma do me for a bit...enjoy my life! Live in the moment...workout here and there...avoid bread! Lol proud to say have been alcohol free for about a month now :oP so see I got this! And with that said...I'm sexy and I know and I know u are too! ;o)

Lost without you...

Oh where have u gone?!?! When I need u the most your ass isn't there and when i didn't need u...u were ways showing up with a vengeance! I go M.I.A for a few and u leave me like a bad habit?!? As much as I try finding u...u never show up! The hell?!? What have I done for you to leave?!? Is it cuz I found something (well someone ) to take my attention away from you?!?

Well I'm back...I haven't really forgotten about you I swear! I just had to lose myself for a bit and figured u would be around when I was ready but ur not...it's kinda f*** up to think u have gone...or if u haven't left then wtf am I doing wrong?!? Did I really lose you because I wasn't sure of what I needed?!? I'm sorry! I promise to never leave you...again...I'm here to stay! I might not have my shit 100% together but I can assured u that u have my attention!

DRIVE..I need you back in my life! I know it's not too late! I have refocused and even tho my attention has gone to other ppl and places...I can guarantee that u are my priority! U have gotten me so far in the past 7 yrs and I will always appreciate you for everything that you have done and I want to show you how grateful I am by giving u my all from now on! If I don't u can leave me and only I will have myself to blame...remember I am here to stay so I need you with me...deal?!? Sweet! So I will see u tomorrow and I promise not to bullshit u!

Love,

The wreckless one who desperately needs u back!

Results of Day 1...59 to go...

FIT TEST! aka Death to fat in 25 mins! dear god i forgot how tiring it can be! hahaha

starting weight...132...ending weight in 60 days...125...7lbs...can it be done?!?! F*** YEA KID! ok let me get to the point haha

Day 1: 07/20/12

switch kicks = 60

power jacks = 51

power knees = 90

power jumps = 34

globe jumps = 8 (x4) = 32 

suicide jumps = 17

push up jacks = 15

low plank obliques = 44

in 60 days if u dont see a change thats cuz im effn up! if thats the case kick my ass and make sure i press play! gettin sexy back...again before I turn 28...starts today! 

Starting over!

So today I decided to do insanity all over again! 60 days of straight up pain! But it's OK tho...no pain no gain! These past couple of months have been jye like hard for me...went from 127 to 132...some might think that ain't s*** but to me it is! I have an idea of what my body needs to look like and I didn't kick my ass for a yr to lose it...

So here I am starting brand new...today I do the fit test... Aaaaaah! Idk if I'll survive...but eff it yo! I'm going balls to the wall! Might have to take it easy cuz of my ankle but screw it...gonna push thru! So getting ready to press play! Whoop! Whoop!

Slippin...

Lately have been struggling with going back to where I use to be and idk how I could let myself get to where I am now...not too long ago I was at 126-127...my ideal weight and I wasn't lookin like I was starving but I was seeing how close I was to getting that "lean" look...but for some reason I have let myself go and it's disappointing...I didn't work this hard to get get my sexy on to just let it go...u know!

For this that have known me know that my weight has ALWAYS been an issue for me...I was the chunky one from my crew (still kinda am but my bff's will tell u otherwise lol)...but lately I haven't been taking time for myself...I've been stressing over work and other personal stuff (slowly working on getting this part of my life together...it's taking a toll on me but I'm fighting real hard to not let it effect my results if getting and STAYING SEXY! LOL)

Here I am calling myself out! I've been fiend for sweets and snacking when I feel overwhelmed with life (that's little Debbie's way of coming back and creeping here way back). I seriously f**** up this wknd! Lol cupcakes, tiramisu, crepes, ramen noodle soup! Aaaaaaah! What makes it worse my friends love to eat...I do too but I can do without eating every hour lol I wish I could say my friends are unhealthy and lead an unhealthy lifestyle but there not lol I've known these broads what it seems like my whole life! One is a yoga instructor who has been petite since I've known here and has been able to eat whatever except she isn't a big fan of starches...which I am! Lol the other one goes to the gym as much as she changed her underwear lol but of course her body type is was different...she's curvy but has been able to maintain that flat stomach (Makes me want to punch her lol)! And my other partner in crime...has always been skinny...i don't think I've seen her meaty lol but then again she's pretty tall compared to the three of us lol there girls think I'm crazy for wanting to love weight and that I'm obsessed which I am haha but I know how I want my body to be...I did do asylum, a month of insanity, and maybe 2-3 wks of P90X to lose my flat tummy,.close to losing my love handles, losing my upper body strength and start having those sexy lines where my abs should be lol...

My new mission since I found out I can fit my mom's jeans...is to fit into her size 2 jeans without fat poking out, feeling like I can't breath, and just looking sloppy! Lol how will I accomplish this?!? Easy...I'm going back to eating my 5-6 meals, I don't count my calories just because I think it adds more pressure and stress to only eat a certain amount, no mas pan dulce! I did it for 2-3 wks... Gotta do it again...also get my 7 hrs of sleep...4-5 is no good..no more eating after a certain time aaaaaaand making sure I post my meals and workouts to keep my ass accountable! Sexy is coming back with a vengeance! So if u wanna join me Holla at me! :-)

Move out bitches...sexy coming thru full force! Good day!

Asylum...the end!

So its been a hell of a 30 DAY EXPERIENCE! I couldve done a few things different but i cant complain too much with my results...ive lost inches which is important! I'm getting over the weight part (muscle weighs more!) but that will come in time meaning i need to be a little more discipline! lol but here are the before and after pics of my 30 day journey! (not much change but i feel it in my performance and thats what truly matters!) i know it says wear the same outfit...and i did! but you know how i do...my clothes ALWAYS ALWAYS gotta match my SHOES! haha

First set of pics taken: 03/18/12 

Second set taken: 04/17/12 

 (one day my abs will be defined..just not right now lol stupid bread! lol)

Starting April 30th i will start a new mission...to add on to my obsession with working out...i will be adding doing a double dose of insanity..oh yes...DOUBLE DOSE PPL! and what pray tale might that be you ask...well just let me learn ya right quik...Insanity (60 day program) + Insanity: Asylum (30 days) = idk what that equals but just to let you know...its gonna be the best 30 days of my life! lol if you think you ready...holla at me! my girls and I have done an EXCELLENT JOB! Im super proud of each and every single one of us! now we want to add as many ppl as we can to join us in our next journey! we ready to change one life...one plyo jump at a time! 

Just so you know...we are anxiously awaiting Shaun T's next insane program! WE AINT NEVA SCURRED!

21 days left...

so yea...i know i've been bad with bloggin my process. ive tried to update everyday or post a video but dudes...i be tired! Shaun T kills me! you would think that after the first wk it'll get easier...HELL NO! it got WORSE! how?!?! hell if i kno! lol but for strength i felt it and i still feel it on top of that i went to theWorx with Maia...she had a sub yesterday...he's flippin awesome! he had me in pain but it was flippin great!

so let me tell u what u have missed...last was day 4 right?!?!

day 5: was "rest day"...no such this as rest i did Insanity: Pure Cardio Late friday with a fellow coach via skype (so if u need that motivation and ur a lazy ass...SKYPE ME!)
day 6: Speed and Agility - bendito! mad i was sweatin like it was nobodys business...it looked like i peed my pants! it was horrible but the best workout ever! i was able to jump into the third box for in and out progression with the agility ladder! that same day My sister and I coached and i did my first PLYO PUSH UP! dont stop! get it! get it! so that was the end of my 2 workouts a day type thing...no i lie...keep reading...smh...
day 7: my sister and i did Kempo or Kenpo Cardio Plus (P90X) workout....then we did asylum: strength! i was out for the count man! great workout!
day 8: my first 5am this wk...which was Monday...Back to Core...geez! reverse plank...is the death of my elbow...well besides everything else he has us do...the revers plank is straight up torture! but it felt good especially since it was the last workout lol
last but not least...today...day 9! Vertical Plyo! off no bull i think i pulled something lol like i know i pulled something idk what i did but i did it lol im all jacked up in the game..but its ok! no pain no gain right?!?!?! it kicked my butt! u can see it on my fb page! im done for the count! oh and to add a little more stretch (smart but not too smart) P90X: Yoga! it was a good stretch i aint gonna lie...i'll feel all this tomorrow!


pero..for now...i shall leave you with a preview of how after 1 wk of doing Asylum it has kinda sorta "changed" my physique! (no photo shop ppl..all natural! you wanna change?!?! hit me up! i got change! i just need ur commitment! msg me on fb, tweet me, comment on mi blog, smoke signals...whatever u like! im here for u! whoop! whoop!)

(photo taken: 03/22/12)

LET THE GAMES BEGIN FOR DAY 10 AT 4 AM TOMORROW!

Day 4...26 to go!

here's to day 4: vertical plyo! bendito was this joint hard especially when we had to do X-jumps with the bands! my inner thighs hurt like crazy! but well well worth the sweat in my eyes! i was pretty sad that i couldnt  do my 4am workout...my body just couldnt do it...so i slept :( but im back at it tomorrow...with either asylum, insanity, or P90X: yoga...i need to stretch out these used muscles! anyone tryna make sure i wake up early?!? lol i beat ya'll are thinking she cray! hahaha i am...but im a firm believer of if there is a will there is a way! and as much as i hate waking up earlier than i need too..imma do it! so here's to getting sexy! and i repeat...if u need an accountability partner...im here! trust me...i'll make u push hard and make sure u get where u wanna be...all i need and ask for is ur commitment and i'll be ur cheerleader all the way!

so lets get our sexy on ppl and remember:

MY THEME SONG!

Days 2 and 3...

OK so I haven't been posting not because I'm lazy but because these workouts are killers! Lol I've done some of these with our BTC instructor but damn! Shaun T be going hoooord man! Lol

Day 2 consisted of strength...upper body, core work (he works ur correct every single day to be honest). For some of these workouts he said we cud either use dumbbells or bands...I don't have the bands but I did use dumbbells...5lbs. At first...not so bad but then when he goes 2 rounds of each move...Oh it hurts and it hurts good! Lol but gonna invest in 8-10 lb dumbbells. I'm tryna have some guns on me! Or at least no flab haha...but day 2...really made me hate push ups lol! But I got them done! What! What! Oh and that same day I also went to BTC with my sister and we did station workouts...yo! I was only there for 35 mins and I was sweating! Maia goes mad hard at theWorx! (If ur in VA and want a workout join us! She is at Wakefield park off Braddock rd I think Tuesday and Thursday and Monday and Wednesday she is at the firehouse off backlick rd in Springfield!)

Day 3...back to core...basically what it says we did! We worked out both upper and lower back and worked core the whoooole time! Now this joint...smh...PAIN! but no Paul no gain right?!?! Needless to say I was covered in my own sweat by 4:30 am! Lol Oh and his warm ups...killer! Lol but again...gotta work up them muscles! Also on day 3 went back to theWorx at the firehouse and worked our core! Oh more pain! More swear! Or as some wud say...our fat was crying! And it cried really really bad! Lol

3 days down and I feel great! Woke up at 4am these last 2 days and will keep doing it until my body tells me I can't! I think I posted on my FB yesterday...when there is a will there's a way! So I'm willing to lose sleep to get my body where it needs to be (of course will rest to recharge my batteries!) So if u think u don't have time or u can't see urself doing something way out of ur comfort zone remember...ur only living when ur living outside of ur comfort zone! If u need motivation or need an accountability partner I am here and willing to help those that really want to live a different lifestyle!

day 1 done 29 to go!

well hello again!

i know i have abandoned all my blogs but i'm back and in action....WHAAAAPOOOOOOW! from the lst time i posted...idk...i had mad changes! i did a 60 day challenge lost 10 lbs. dropped 2 dress sizes...gained muscle (yeaaaa buddy!) ran a few races...approx 10...what u know about that??! hahaha...and man! can i just say im the happiest...EVER! i've said fair well to Little Debbie..even though lately she tends to make appearances *smack* but its ok...its only normal to slip up just as long as you get back up and start all over again! obstacles are made to be passed dammit! and i've passed a HUGE ONE! so look out...sexy bikini body on the way...WHOOP! WHOOP!

For those who dont know...i decided to do Insanity: The Asylum (que nombre right?!?) its a 30 day challenge..i got a few of my fellow team coaches to join in on this joint! and what can i say...WE ARE FLIPPIN DETERMINED! you can see it in our eyes! its crazy! we are gonna EAT (and we gone eat A LOT...healthy of course), BREATHE, SLEEP...INSANITY! if u dont know...now you know! it's serious! we are all focused on getting our bodies to where we want them to be! we each have our stories and dammit if that doesnt push us then trust me...one of us will push! lol (might be me..might not...idk lol)

so yesterday we did the "fit test" and maaaaan let me tell you! i aint so fit hahaha ok im a little but i was sturggling! not only that but i have tendinitis so i'm technically not supposed to be adding pressure on my elbow but since i like to listen to what ppl tell me i do what i need to do...just push through the pain and make sure i dont pop nothing :) but yea...yesterday..good times..we was hurtin...well i was hurtin...but thank goodness for the bomb lunch! :) again thank you ladies! and Nikki thanx for providing ur home and of course joining me on the glorious journey!

today..dia numero uno! bendito man! this dude killed me! haha...but in a good way...i couldnt do much of the moves cuz my room is big but i have very limited space so i did what i could in 45 mins and i did most of the workout...bear crawls...kinda hard but they gots done! i do have a video that i want to share so i dont ramble on and on and on! so enjoy and if ur inerested...i'll try to post every day on my marvelous journey to being an asylum alumni! ok pump the video but here are my day 1 pictures...next is 15...then 30!