BODY: I'm feeling hella sore I can tell you that much! lol (I haven't felt so sore since I started bootcamp...idk if thats a good thing or a bad thing) This wk I have pushed extra hard! I try to finish out each and every single wk with a BANG! and I think I might have been successful. I've added a little more cardio to the mix (tryna rid myself of these damn love handles...if its from being loved...i need to be loved less lol). I must say...i never found running to be fun or worth my time unless I was running late for work. But running helps me a lot! I destress! I remember way back when my best friend and I used to call each other up at 6 am to go running...we would make sure we would wake up like fully up and run for like 30 mins...she would be dying but i'd keep going. Funny part...wee would try to make it an every day type thing but then we just preferred sleeping. To this day she still hates running and tells me and my other best friend that we are retarded or crazy for running lol. I last a lot longer running since I learned the proper way of running. I'm still surprised that there is a technique for it lol when i see ppl run I never knew they had a technique but hey...you learn something new every single day...right? :)
LEARNING: New things that I have learned about myself over these past few weeks is that I am determined. When I want to do something, especially if its a drastic change, then i'll put my whole heart into it! These past 6 wks, have been hell for me but I've pushed and pushed and pushed! I even push when I don't feel like it (i get this feeling a lot but I overcome it especially when I see everyone else kicking ass and when I feel my sweat dripping from my hair down my neck lol i know it sounds gross and it it but its the best feeling that i get while at bootcamp).
OBSERVATIONS: I have learned to not give a f*** what people say about the reason why I am doing things. If people do not like why I am changing myself for ME, then then hell with you! Here i thought I got rid of the negative nancy's in my life but i guess i didnt lol. Last night I was asked the same question I've been getting asked for the past few wks..."how come you dont drink no more?" my reaction of course is rolling my eyes and simply say "because I DO NOT WANT TOO!" (of course that is followed by a dirty look or by others who are like well hey do what you gotta do) and of course I LOVE having this conversation on a saturday night while i am trying to have fun...but yea...that wasnt the case last night. I was then told that my response wasnt enough. that there is a scientific reason on why I decided to stop drinking. In my head, i was like if this b*** doesnt shut the hell up! lol but ive known this person for years and of course she is one of the many people that has yet to see me without a drink in my hand when i'm out dancing. My only reaction to her telling me all this was there is no scientific reasoning for the things I do. It's all personal if that isnt enough then hey assume what you must. of course this bothered me and rained on my little parade but I am glad that I had others proud of me and backed me up for why I dont drink. I've said this before...i do not have a problem i just have bad habits. when I used to drink I would say the only problem i have is that i dont have enough hands for the number of drinks i want lol (of course i was joking lol) but i dont want people to think I am a drunk cuz i'm not. I drink because I wanted too. It's something that I picked up. It's like a habit that gets old and of course puts a HUGE dent in your pockets lol I dont judge people for drinking because then that would make me a HUGE hypocrite. People do things just because they want too. So if I decide to do things to better my life than thats what I am going to do whether people like it or not. I am changing for ME! only ME! if people dont like that then you arent meant to be in my life and accept the new me. I am glad for having that small support system in and out of bootcamp. The coaches are awesome! My friends and family are by far the best! and it makes me happy to know that everyone is seeing a better me! A me that I never knew I could bring out. My sister...who was the main reason i went to bootcamp is an awesome cheerleader...and i thank her for making me go! (i do the same for her...except when she is sick...but she is as hard headed as me and doesnt know how to stay home and rest! lol)Thanks to bootcamp I am able to be a tad more positive with life and with me :) and of course there is this special someone that has been always supported me and been there for me...even tho he hasnt seen the changes ive recently made I know when he does he'll be super amazed lol (Gosh i'm crying! lol blaaah! yes i'm an emotional capricorn...i control it when necessary lol)
GOALS: starting off with long term...keep going to bootcamp. Not lose or forget the reasons I CHOSE to join bootcamp. To be as dedicated as I was since day one. NEVER EVER lose that drive that I have to live a happier and healthier lifestyle. Focus on the most important person in my life...that being ME! short term goals...finish each and every single wk with a bang! prep for my 2nd 5k on Saturday w/ my sister (whoo hoo, super excited...kinda nervous but this time no obstacles! lol i can do without almost killing myself lol but after kicking ass in Warrior dash...i'm pretty sure I can do "almost" anything lol). get at must rest as a possibly can! going out Saturday threw me off completely! lol PROTEIN PROTEIN PROTEIN! (i dont think i eat enough lol) oh and BE POSITIVE!
down with wk 6...now on to the next one! let's rock the s*** out of wk 7! :)
Sorry this is my first comment on your blog!!....but, I think your awesome! Your perspective has changed so much since we all first met. I could see the trepidation and doubt in yourself, but now........BUT NOW....your story is truly inspiring!
ReplyDeleteAbout the negativity you are experiencing....well, it's common with "party buddies." Every part of your life is a journey. It's when you venture off that common path that your friends or family want you either to stay or want to go with you, but don't know how or just won't act with you. The negativity you see or hear is their own disdain for their action (which ever it is). They take it out on you. My attitude is not to get defensive (which I know is hard), but just to turn the tables. Be witty and always have a comeback and then just go and DANCE!
Well, I could go on and on...we'll chat on tonight!