Slippin...

Lately have been struggling with going back to where I use to be and idk how I could let myself get to where I am now...not too long ago I was at 126-127...my ideal weight and I wasn't lookin like I was starving but I was seeing how close I was to getting that "lean" look...but for some reason I have let myself go and it's disappointing...I didn't work this hard to get get my sexy on to just let it go...u know!

For this that have known me know that my weight has ALWAYS been an issue for me...I was the chunky one from my crew (still kinda am but my bff's will tell u otherwise lol)...but lately I haven't been taking time for myself...I've been stressing over work and other personal stuff (slowly working on getting this part of my life together...it's taking a toll on me but I'm fighting real hard to not let it effect my results if getting and STAYING SEXY! LOL)

Here I am calling myself out! I've been fiend for sweets and snacking when I feel overwhelmed with life (that's little Debbie's way of coming back and creeping here way back). I seriously f**** up this wknd! Lol cupcakes, tiramisu, crepes, ramen noodle soup! Aaaaaaah! What makes it worse my friends love to eat...I do too but I can do without eating every hour lol I wish I could say my friends are unhealthy and lead an unhealthy lifestyle but there not lol I've known these broads what it seems like my whole life! One is a yoga instructor who has been petite since I've known here and has been able to eat whatever except she isn't a big fan of starches...which I am! Lol the other one goes to the gym as much as she changed her underwear lol but of course her body type is was different...she's curvy but has been able to maintain that flat stomach (Makes me want to punch her lol)! And my other partner in crime...has always been skinny...i don't think I've seen her meaty lol but then again she's pretty tall compared to the three of us lol there girls think I'm crazy for wanting to love weight and that I'm obsessed which I am haha but I know how I want my body to be...I did do asylum, a month of insanity, and maybe 2-3 wks of P90X to lose my flat tummy,.close to losing my love handles, losing my upper body strength and start having those sexy lines where my abs should be lol...

My new mission since I found out I can fit my mom's jeans...is to fit into her size 2 jeans without fat poking out, feeling like I can't breath, and just looking sloppy! Lol how will I accomplish this?!? Easy...I'm going back to eating my 5-6 meals, I don't count my calories just because I think it adds more pressure and stress to only eat a certain amount, no mas pan dulce! I did it for 2-3 wks... Gotta do it again...also get my 7 hrs of sleep...4-5 is no good..no more eating after a certain time aaaaaaand making sure I post my meals and workouts to keep my ass accountable! Sexy is coming back with a vengeance! So if u wanna join me Holla at me! :-)

Move out bitches...sexy coming thru full force! Good day!